The songs have found their way home
From diary pages to lyrics: the album "From the Beginning" is here
When I first opened that faded diary from 1998, I thought I was simply revisiting the past. I had no idea I was about to birth an album.
For months now, you've been with me on this journey: reading excerpts from my eighteen-year-old self, following the stories of graduation anxiety, ice cream shop memories, crushes that felt like earthquakes, and dreams that stretched far beyond the borders of Lagoa Dourada. You've witnessed me in conversation with that girl I used to be, finding tenderness for her intensity, her longing, her beautiful, aching hope.
What I didn't expect was how those diary entries would start humming.
🎧 Today, I'm thrilled to share that From the Beginning—the album—is now available everywhere you listen to music.
How a diary became songs
It started with a single line from March 1998: "I want to hide in the corners of myself." As I typed those words for one of my early posts, a melody surfaced, almost like a lullaby I might have sung to that anxious teenager.
Each song emerged from this same process: a memory, a feeling, sometimes just the mood of a particular diary page. Sometimes they would grow from entries about imagination and play, sometimes from raw, complicated family dynamics and finding my voice in the world while navigating internal conflicts and many, many dreams that I could not contain inside myself.
When the songs were ready to grow beyond humming, AI helped me give them the voices and melodies they were asking for.
The album that grew in the margins
This isn't a concept album exactly, but it is a conversation album. Each track speaking to a different post I wrote, and being part of growing up and growing into myself.
In the corners paints the scene of where I grew up
The gate holds a sweet memory of my grandmother's house, which now belongs to me and where I keep many things from back then, including that very gate which hangs as art on my wall
Spell for a girl who remembers offers magic for memory and resilience when they were most needed
Freezer hums celebrates the small joys of my first job, and also touches on grief
House rules sits with raw family conflicts
You're safe here (Instrumental) extends an invitation to breathe and hug yourself
Back page captures my reading habits through a classmate's eyes
Definition offers a spoken word piece reflecting on (rejected) first love
What this album means
From the Beginning exists because that eighteen-year-old girl in Brazil was brave enough to write everything down. It exists because, twenty-six years later, I was brave enough to read it all back. But mostly, it exists for anyone who has ever felt like their teenage self was too intense, too much, too tender for this world.
You weren't too much. You were exactly who you needed to be.
This album is my attempt to create the soundtrack I wish I'd had then: songs that say it's okay to feel everything, that growing up doesn't mean leaving your younger self behind, that there's profound beauty in the messy, magnificent process of becoming who you are.
🎧 Listen Now
From the Beginning is available on Spotify, Apple Music, and all streaming platforms. Whether you've been following the diary series or you're just discovering this project, I hope these songs find you exactly where you need them.
To everyone who has read along, shared your own memories in the comments, and held space for this vulnerable work, thank you. You made this album possible by making the diary series feel like a conversation rather than a monologue.
The 1998 diary may be closed, but these songs carry its spirit forward. They're yours now, to hold whatever memories and dreams you bring to them.
Stream From the Beginning now and let me know which song speaks to your own inner teenager. I have a feeling she's been waiting to hear from you.
Listen to "From the Beginning" on:
[Spotify] [Apple Music] [iTunes] [YouTube]
Read the full series:
